Submitted By Sandra Burbage
A life of deep pain, abandonment, and brokenness describes the result of the alcoholic home that was chosen by God, who has never made that one mistake and causes all things to work together for good for those that love Him and the called according to his purpose.
Fear and insecurity lurked behind every thought and action in my life of childhood and early adulthood. Purposeless and tossed by every wind of illusion, my thoughts of having someone who really loved me had to be the answer to my life. By this time, married for several years, I knew a baby was the answer to this deep need within my soul. The responsibilities of having a child begged the question, "Isn't there more to life than this?"
My husband and I visited a dead church. In the midst of this "seeking an answer," I found a Bible and began to read and read and read. As God in his sovereignty would have it, my twin sister had just received Christ at this time and began to write letters to me of this amazing, personal, intimate relationship she had with Jesus. Part of me wanted to throw those letters away, but God was doing a drawing in my soul to Himself.
My sister called me and asked me how I was doing, and I told her I was trying to become a Christian! She said to me, "Just keep reading your Bible. "I got off the phone thinking this too is illusive and I'll never attain to this relationship that my sister had with Jesus! But that night she called me back and said words that I'll never forget: "God loves you, and he wants you!" Tears streamed down my face as I thought, "He really does love me and want me?"
I prayed to receive this amazing free gift of God's grace. Never turning back because I'm a new creation in Christ Jesus!
For this abundant life of being in Christ, I am forever grateful to my twin sister, my Phoebe, whom God used to deliver me from darkness and transfer me into His kingdom of light.
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